So … what thoughts are crossing my tired mind tonight? Well, honestly, I was thinking of a brief conversation I had a few years back with a co-worker. We were both working for the same company and he knew I was a writer with a day job and I knew he was a singer/musician/songwriter with a day job.
For the sake of his privacy, I will call him “Chris.” Anyway, I was walking by Chris as we were both standing outside on a break. I had just made a mental note about how hard it was to be cooped up in an office all day when all I wanted to do was enjoy the glorious autumn day with crisp wind blowing to make the colorfully balding trees dance in the late afternoon sunshine. The shivering shadows were mesmerizing.
I was pulled from my reverie when I saw Chris leaning against the side of the building. He looked really down. I asked him what was wrong. He just said, “I just have a hard time some days.”
I knew exactly what he meant. I patted his shoulder and said, “Working a regular, steady job is hard for everyone, but it’s agonizing for us creative types.”
A light came on in his eyes and his mouth dropped open. “Yesss … exactly.”
“You’re not alone. We do what we have to do to keep the lights on and food on the table, but don’t give up the dream,” I said.
He thanked me. He said it made him feel better. I meant it … I said it as much for him as for myself. Every day I check my sales on Amazon and I hope that my work has caught fire … it’s a slow smoulder, but I see now a growing audience as people are telling others. It’s hard … being an indie. Harder working a regular job while I do it.
So … every time I sit down at the computer to work on my next project (currently, that is my next novel, The Witch of Hadler’s Woods) … I think about what my dream is. When I think I’m going to just quit this crazy writing habit that is my drug of choice, I remember what I had hoped for for so long …and then I just let the stories come and the characters speak to me and I step into that world and hope one day that world will support me.
Hey. I can dream.
So … on that note … I often talk about how I develop a writing playlist for each project. The Witch of Hadler’s Woods is no different. I have an installment or two so far I have mentioned. Tonight I found one — with the help of my sweetie and rock guru– it is “Ghost Behind My Eyes” by Ozzy Osbourne. It suits the main character’s struggle … he’s got someone else living in his head that is urging him to go to the legendary witch that is rumored to be in Hadler’s Woods. His struggle is complex and not as hokey as it might sound … I have been enjoying writing about his angst.
So … I hope you will give a listen to Ozzy … let him set the mood … Here’s the YouTube link: